Which Self Should I Be?

I have just started looking at my internal world and things are very chaotic. First some good news: I got asked to a dance. Yes me, believe it or not. I hate dances, I can't dance, and the school hosting it is known to be the wealthiest in town. But I like this girl, and I like her a great deal. She's beautiful, cute, funny, silly, sweet, warm, real, and just plain fun to be around. Tonight I went to her last basketball game (which I arrived at 2 mins after it ended), ate ice cream, and played Cranium and Catchphrase. I was nervous that I was going to screw up, apprehensive when meeting all the friends and family. Shit, I have so much more to write, but I am using the Alpha-Stim. So I will bullet so points to help me jog:

• Mania addiction and alpha stim
• Fitting in with new crowd
• AG vs AW
• Different selfs